Curt

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Mon, 31 Mar 2003 09:05:27 GMT

i left the horizon curled up and frozen still, the tilting of the hour glass with all this time to kill.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Tue, 25 Feb 2003 05:54:29 GMT

laying facedown on the sky we watched the planes fly under,
with the sand to our backs nothing but the wind to blanket us,
the stars like far of street lights and broken bulbs burn into the ground,
seems as if i should run, but i think ill stay

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Sat, 22 Feb 2003 20:11:16 GMT

22 hour day, 7 hour night.
jack at the beach with little surfer kids runnng around.
free finch, movie life, a static lullaby, and senses fail tickets.
flowers for the lady at u.s. liquor.
omar! do you realize that none of these things would have happened if we didnt stay up all night. dude.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Wed, 19 Feb 2003 18:35:40 GMT

i wouldnt have tired to cut if i knew i would dull.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Sun, 09 Feb 2003 04:32:30 GMT

take tese wings from my back ad watch gravity take it toll, what cost will i have to pay? while i fall from the horizon you move towards our eyes meet passing by, saying everything the object inside holds, the hardest words to say are soft spoken, you grab hold of my frailed threads as the seperation unravels me, streaking fragments leave lights in the sky, coming apart piece by piece, memory by memory slows my plumit, grantng me a lifetime to fall apart, the sound of your voice with syncronized break lights, still holdng on and now im hanging, please dont let go, im not ready to fall

preview

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Thu, 06 Feb 2003 07:41:43 GMT

read the tale of my desire (ill never walk away) a book of hate yeah (ill never exhale) 1000 volts for (ill never walk away) every smile you gave me (never exhale)as your eyes close ill bring before, the sight of true unhappiness, whisper i care then gracious enough, to let you go, remember me for the times i ruined you, not the times i made you smile, take this blade to my wrist, help me end what makes you ugly, swimming in the pools of my mind, you come to me at night, leave me black and save yourself --------------------------------------------------------------------------

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Thu, 30 Jan 2003 06:10:04 GMT

goodnight, maybe ill see you sometime if youve got the time, visit to tell me things of the past in my dreams, meet to tell me of what you are now, catch up to whats been lost at a table with 2 chairs, conversation coloring the rose inbetween, the candle that lights all inbetween, it hurts to love someone who you feel you dont know, knowing you love them.

si-fi

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Tue, 28 Jan 2003 05:05:01 GMT

released to soon from the place we all grow, ill make up feelings and emotions as i go, not learning to deal with lifes busy signal, running through a spinning disk ejected when the sounds runs out, was the television image i projected not clear enough for you? or is your satellites frequency too great for my pick ups, staionary black out with momentary collapse causing long term error in the computers green glow, fiber optical red streams run from the joint at hand due to interference of modem failure and the knife in my hand, falling apart from the corners, the mainframe holds on, power source is scarce receiving only vocal and visual bits, back up memory on overload feeding into this shutdown, log out before its too late, outside of us is inside of it...

saves the day - (firefly)

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Mon, 06 Jan 2003 04:39:05 GMT

to me you are the light from a light bulb breaks sometimes and the tender warmth inside is released into mylife ad it smothers me in flames that lick ad scorch my face. as te smoke reaches the sky, know im burnin tonight, know im burnin tonight, know im burnin tonight, know im burnin tonight, know ill burn for you tonight.

ptw- not within arms length

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Mon, 16 Dec 2002 06:11:02 GMT

not within arms length. id sever the stars from the sky. and place them in your hands. if i though another wish, theyd see the light of day. but you stand beyond the sun. beyond the reach of just a friend. if i grew wings, maybe if you lost yours. these words would flow like water. if youd let them scrape your heart. but you stand beyond the sun. beyond the reach of just a friend. not within arms length. embedded within my concise effort. a silent cry, i recieve no comfort. and as i collapse we remain friends. as i hold my breath, a throat full of cement. im disgusted by repetition i accept this curse. of friendship, your friend, friendship

11:59 (maybe)

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Thu, 12 Dec 2002 08:06:39 GMT

sorry, but it must be done again_
some will understand, some wont. and thats ok.

Passed out on the overpass,
Sunday best and broken glass.
Broken down from the bikes and bars,
suspended like spirits over speeding cars.
You and me were kings over the parkway tonight
and tonight we'll go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat
singing "Everybody wake up. It's time to get down."
And when I pass the bottle back to Pete
On the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh...

I'm going to stay 18 forever. So we can stay like this forever.
And we'll never miss a party cuz we keep them going constantly.
And we'll never have to listen to anyone about anything,
cuz it's all been said and it's all been said.
We're the coolest kids and we take what we can get...

...the hell out of this town, find some conversation.
The low fuel light's been on for days,
doesn't mean anything.
I got another five hundred miles before we shut this engine down.

I'm going to stay 18 forever. So we can stay like this forever.
And we'll never miss a party cuz we keep them going constantly.
And we'll never have to listen to anyone about anything,
cuz it's all been done and it's all been said.
We're the coolest kids and we take what we can get...

Just jealous cuz we're young and in love...

311-uncalm

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Wed, 11 Dec 2002 06:18:40 GMT

on the scales of desire your absence weighs more than someone elses presence.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Mon, 09 Dec 2002 06:31:52 GMT

circumstances lead us to be prisoners.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Sat, 07 Dec 2002 10:31:45 GMT

wait, i dont understand,these words dont work in my ears,where am i to go or stay when the days end is in focus on you, invisible, like an imaginary friend, a ghost call that rang with all deception, i will hear your call and enjoy your voice, will you hear my call through under and above ground telephone wires tapped in to my heart,this throat is sore from all its speaking from trying to figure out, all and nothing mean everything, so where is inbetween? thoughts dont cease with you all about them, sleep tight tonight knowing someone needs you, cause tomorrow it will be again.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Fri, 06 Dec 2002 06:42:47 GMT

you breathe like the ocean, breath so relaxing, your eyes closed like flowers in the night that hide thier beauty, you sleep and ill watch, your snow white rest conclude, inward notion of air, a rise and fall with every breath, your body is alive, your hair layed across the pillow, a reason to stay awake, i hope my heart beat did not wake you, i felt it shake the world, you sleep and ill listen, to your wind blow me away.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Thu, 05 Dec 2002 06:36:10 GMT

walking with unsure feet, stumbling through yesterday, a tight rope step with obese thougts, snaps this anorexic rope and the ground falls towards me, my staples have been removed, what holds me together is no more, everydays a loss of what used to be, this feeling is deeper than the sky, this horizon has not yet to even begin.

GWTW

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Mon, 02 Dec 2002 05:54:01 GMT

"the brandy burned with fiery pleasantness. there was nothing like it when you needed it. in fact, brandy was good almost any time, so much better than insipid wine."

gone with the wind-

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Tue, 26 Nov 2002 20:38:39 GMT

"the thoughts circled and swooped above her, dived down and drove tearing claws and shrap beaks into her mind."

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Tue, 26 Nov 2002 06:15:53 GMT

grab on to my sleeve, the one that grabs at your ankle.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Fri, 22 Nov 2002 08:51:16 GMT

is it possible to miss so much, that you miss yourself? i wonder, and guess. it scares me and hurts not to know. a distant voice that sounds like you. damnit.what did i do?

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Tue, 19 Nov 2002 06:12:14 GMT

i havent bundged, i still stand here, not a loss, unless you make me one. please open your eyes and see me here. im still there, i still listen, still look, still care, still love. i know what i bring is true, and wish it only for you. i havent budged, i still stand here, not a loss, unless you make me one. please listen with ears content and hear me. im still there, i still listen for you, still look for you, still care for you, still love you. still you.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Tue, 12 Nov 2002 04:44:08 GMT

twisted and pulled in to knots, my heart still beats for you, if youd only slow down and tell me why you run, what did i do to make you not seen? bring your blade as close as you want, and dig away if you must, cause whatevers left, its up to you how you cut and deal the pieces, when you are all ive ever wanted, and everything ive not, you somehow choose wither i sleep with ease or toss and turn trying to find you in dreams that feel real, dont revert a chance to evoke what feels right, your picture is worth a thousand words, in which i dont know how to say, because im left breathless from your beauty that has not yet been seen, or the love i could give if you could please recieve.

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Sun, 10 Nov 2002 21:42:58 GMT

everything swirls in my head,
but there is nothing behind it all,
so what's the point of getting dizzy?

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Thu, 07 Nov 2002 06:01:58 GMT

hearts like magnets as the world spins,
the north and south poles bring movement and seperation to liquid and eyes,
magnetic tug brings us closer and futher day by day,
if it was to stop spinning,
could i stay with you?

BtNxNtB@aol.com — Wed, 06 Nov 2002 05:18:05 GMT

fuck.